there’s a hopping crowd

across the street

a band plays music

with salsa beat

people enjoying

laughs and smiles

I haven’t had those

for quite awhile

If I could only

join that crowd

the din for me

is way too loud

I much prefer

the sounds of silence

peace, quiet,

and independence

sitting alone

in this quiet room

a place of dark,

despair and gloom

facing the wall

with vacant stare

Limbs unable to

move anywhere

fatigue and pain’s

all in my head

to leave this cocoon would

cause such dread

a hollowness forms

inside my chest

I inhale, exhale

with shallow breath

for usual interests

there’s no motivation

instead crave solitude

and isolation

from cacophony and chaos

I have to escape

withdrawing inward

for sanity’s sake

my body’s heavy

from lethargy

overwhelmed by nothing

is this my elegy?

in silence I suffer

hiding mood swings

at the top of my lungs

i wish I could sing

and get it all out

a cathartic release

so hopelessness and sorrow

may someday decrease

 

©2016-9-16-L.M.Giannone